依然是朋友

有时候啊人生真的是很懊恼。。。。

有人问我。。。单恋 和 暗恋 那一个比较苦？？

还记得我对她说， “有分别吗？？ 都是一样苦。。。”

因为你所喜欢的人， 不知道你喜欢他。。。

还有你也会一直 在猜他到底有没有喜欢你  或感受得到 你的存在。。

若如果 你喜欢的人是你的朋友 你又如何呢？？

“感情多数 从朋友开始 嘛。。。”

让我想起 ”依然是朋友“ 的故事。。。

故事中一个女孩 暗恋了 一个 男孩

女孩也不知何时 喜欢了 那个 莫名其妙的男孩

那女孩觉得非常矛盾 犹豫了 好几天

女孩发觉 男孩其实 已有欣赏的人选了

心里再也容不了她  她决定后退

在她还没越踩越深前

想把一切事情 埋在 世上 最深最深的海

想让风儿 吹走那些沙。。。

或 让马桶里 的水 冲走一切。。。

男孩不知情的常常想她 说关于他喜欢的那个那女孩

那么这个她 还要忍着痛得 听他说 他多快乐 多幸福 呀！！

每一次听完后 他心里 都觉得非常心酸的感觉

不是嫉妒 而是 羡慕

才发觉那女孩 原来是她的朋友

二话不说 很想马上的 把这位男孩给删除

心里想着 唱着 想念着

直到那一天 他们俩个 在他们常去的咖啡店 碰面

她才知道 有些感受 不成可以说出口

他们都是 最要好的朋友

他没有勇气去开口

可是你 你怎么说？？
女孩说

“若他知道后 会不会 从之避开我

那我会更难过 

多希望我们不成相识过“

我们依然是朋友～～～

story 2

this is the second post

i know this story may sound blurred but forgive me for that as i type it when i was sleepy

afraid that i will forget it so i type it as soon as possible

 Story 2

There was once four ladies living in a beautiful nice apartment. What I could say is that they are BESTIES of all !!! Of course they are pretty and smart and they studied in the same college. They know each other since primary school. They are Angellica, Samantha, Joey and Chloe.


Angellica is a girl with black hair but have sexy lips. Samantha she is really skinny but with a fair skin. Joey is a kind lady with a nice watery eyes . Chloe has a cute round eyes.


This besties are really good and they shared every each of their secret together. They gossip and shared almost everything together. Out of them four Chloe is best in studies, Angellica is best in piano, Samantha is best in socialising and basket-ball and Joey is best in sports and yoga.


They were really popular in schools and also college too. Many of the guys do adore and admired them especially Samantha who is really good in socialising and flirting too. Where the other three girls will only giggle and walk off then talk about it when they are back home.


These four girls do enjoy their life much. As they were sitting in the college’s cafeteria one day, they saw a really cute guy walk pass . Samantha was so excited and so was Angellica and Joey. Chloe did realise that he is cute but its not to that extent of three of her besties and she told ‘em “I don’t even know him….and I don’t like boys younger than me” as Chloe thought he was a junior as he look new to them.


Its time for class and it’s a class which they loved most. They entered into the class and Samantha cried “ Oh my god !!! girls… look that guy Is there ……”


Soon the lecturer came in and ask the new student introduce himself to the others. So he was abit shy and his face soon became tomato …. Hahaha


Angellica “ so his name is Voxxane”everyone soon get it …… all the girls in the class was excited about the new guy Voxxane and the news then quickly spread to the ears of the seniors …


Most of the girls in that college are in love with him..he was like a “thunderstorm”..


Chloe is one of the exceptions….she doesn’t even bothered to hang with him nor flirt ! but on the other hand , her besties were totally flirting with him and tried to get his heart…


One day, the lecturer divided the students into groups base on “the Lecturers’ name list. As we couldn’t predict life, Chloe was in a same group with Voxxane where her besties were in the other group. They couldn’t change the member in group either as the lecturer was a stubborn old professor.


In Chloe’s heart, she never want to be in that same group with him. She whispered to herself softly “ Oh great !! What a Coincidence…..”


Her besties advise her and ask her to cooperate with Voxxane the fullest. To Chloe it is like “Darn It!!”…..


The project was a cumbersome one and it took a long time…. As they coorperate with each other, their communication each day become better. So was Voxxane’s impression to Chloe. To be true, Voxxane actually had a crush on Chloe when he first came to school and he sense that he had know or saw her some where before as she looks familiar.


As days pass they know each other deeper and deeper. until the day the project has been done, Chloe was really happy that she does not have to see Voxxane anymore. But was that true? As days pass she felt that she has been missing something but she couldny figure out.


Angellica and Samantha was really in love with Voxxane and they proposed to him and wrote him a love letter with the content “ hey Voxxane, I am ……. I have been ….. and ‘ the letter continue with a 101 I LOVE YOU VOXXANE written in pen ’…”


Joey on the other hand who has no such guts and courage decided to keep her profile down and decided to just be close friend with Voxxane.


The love letter went and there was no response from Voxxane.


Whereas Voxxane who had a crush on Chloe were contacting her through phones as well as internet. Chloe never told her besties about it as she thought it was not a big deal chating with a friends and besides, they were both doing on a project before.


Everytime when Chloe was on phone it will take a long time where it makes her besties curious . One day Angellica and Samantha find out about her connection with Voxxane. They were feeling suspicious about it and feel angry that they thought that Chloe was hiding all from them since this while. They never voice out and the confusing Chloe doesn’t even know that she had had a crush on Voxxane. Joey was neutral and independent party after all .


But one night Chloe soon figure out that she had had a crush on Voxxane. Because that night and night before she does not get to see Voxxane and get very few calls from him. Of course, Chloe try to deny it by giving lots of excuses to herself ,but this do no last long. She became emo and confused and lost as if in the middle of no where. There is nowhere for her to get the accurate answer.


A week later, Voxxane was back from oversea and sms Chloe. Once she saw his text from phone she felt happy. After then she realise about that . she tried ignore him but she failed. She knew that her besties Samantha and Angellica love him so much that she planned not to step further and deeper. But love … the more she tried to restrain and resist the more she cant help herself. She felt helpless and then she told Joey about her problems . Joey gave her some comfort though but not advise.


One day when she saw a group of friend including her besties playing “Poker Tarot”… she wanted to play too. Since she is lost in a place called nowhere. The games actually goes in a way that ,when you are able to open all 25 cards of ‘K,Ace,Q, J and 10’ in five row according to the arrangements and consequences, this means that the person love you. Before you start the game you have to think of the name and the person you are tarot-ing for.


Soon came to Chloe’s chance. She knew it was stupid but she cant help herself. Surprisingly, she was the first one among all her friends who played to open all 25 cards according to arrangements. She couldn’t even believe her eyes!!


Chloe then said “ I don’t believe , lets try once more it wont be that coincidence right ??”


She then tried the second time… this time she is able to open every single card again !! everyone was amazed.


She decided to try for the third time but the answer is still the same no changes at all . is she lucky or what huh???


Then Angellica and Samantha asked her who was that lucky guy. Chloe stood there for a while and without any reply she just walk off. And then at the apartment, Angellica and Samantha came to Chloe and said “ we need to talk and we have something to ask you….”


Chloe doesn’t know what to say and just talk to them …until Angellica pop out a question “ tell us honestly are you having a crush on Voxxane too?.....”


Chloe gulped and “ erm……………. “ she went on thinking


Angellica and Samantha wait for her answer patiently… and then Chloe says “Yea ….”


The situation become really critical and Samantha and Angellica thought that Chloe betrayed them and back stab them …but Chloe doesn’t do so !!


Chloe was really sad and tried to avoid Voxxane as she is the kind of girl that take friendship seriously. The apartment from that day were never that noisy and joyful. Then when Joey came to know about that she went and told Angellica nad Samantha about that.


While Chloe was having a lot of critism from outside and inside. She was really upset and down that time. Then Voxxane came to know what happened and came to comfort her. Convincing Angellica and Samantha takes Joey a decade as she had to prove to them .


Apparently, Angellica and Samantha felt sorry and apologise to Chloe for what they have done. Chloe forgive them as she loves this besties so musch that she does not want to lose them. Voxxane was so kind totake care of Chloe when she was sad. During their conversation, they soon find out that they were in the same primary school when he was primary six.


It was a miracle that I could say that both were already in love since then. Chloe and Voxxane remember the moment they both see eyes to eyes at the back stage during concert and their friends pulled them away.


They both remember the moment where they have their trip to an island. The moment they spend their time and the moment they talk to each other. They remember that the whole school was been talking about their ambiguity and even the teachers know about it. Chloe remember how popular he was in school when he was in primary school.


They remembered how sad they were to be separated after that and they lose contact with each other. As that time Voxxane is to fly with his parents to Australia due to several reasons. Chloe told voxxane how it takes to make her recovered from sadness and this is why she didlike farewells.


All this memories and obstacle enable them to be together and able to put both this lovely souls together. Although the loves went across the oceans and seas but when it was meant to be, it will come back to you.

I will just crap in this post ............. ignore if you want to........but at least read la ...   ; p
mmhmmm how should i start a story ???
who cares  LOL

STORY 1

Once there was a girl name Elvina. She was a  very clever and beautiful girl.
She had brown eyes, average height that a girl would love to have and also a wavy nice brown hair. She was a happy girl. A happy teenage girl is what i can say. She had almost what she want and its like Elvina's wonderland. Being a tennage girl in this 21st century is not easy but its cool.

This girl later later came to have some problems and then become emo. Sometimes it become critical as she cant help to resist it . All this matter and trouble her was 'LOVE'~~~

This come to point which it is to a peak that she could say to herself "CONFUSED" and also " I DONT KNOW" which she never try to say that before...

As things become complicated she hope to sort it out as quick as possible but u cant want things in the way u want it ..... as live is hard to predict. The longer she hold it the longer she feels it. then came one day she told this guy . When she is courage enough. She called the boy out for a shopping as well as movie . Oh by the way this guy called  Justin.

Without any quiry Justin quickly says YES!!! He was very happy indeed that Elvina asked him out. He was full of joy and was contented !! Justin hop and jump and skip around his room as he was really excited about that.

He then slows down and feel a little suspicious .But who cares right ?As long as he is happy!! he then look into his wardrobe and looking for his best outfits to wear for his date tomorrow.

At the side of Elvina, she was still confused . She couldn't sleep the whole night and was sitting and lying and turning left right up down . Then she decided to look at the moon as well as doing some origamy stars with colourful paper strips.... as well as listening to some soft music. Later when she came to fall asleep without herself noticing.

ALARM RANG !!!!!!
(Griiiiiiinnnnngggg...rrrrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnggggg)

Its 7.00a.m , Justin quickly wake up to get ready.... Brushing his teeth happily
and singing loudly and happily when he was having his shower.
He then put on his best outfits and then spray some of the "parfum" that Elvina like and just woooshhh  Out he go .......

Elvina on the other hand, was still thinking on how to talk to him. "Nevermind, i can figure it out during movies time..." ............
She then feel lest comfort and called one of her besties for help...Her besties gave her a little comfort and advise ....

HONK !!!HONK!!!

"Owh its Justin, how how ........."said Elvina
Before she is able todo anything Justin called " Hey Elvina I am at your door now...."

Now Elvina is really nervous .... telling herself "okay girl chill chill ... you can do it"
taking a deep deep breathe and smile to the mirror...and there she go...

They actually have lesser conversation than usual ....where they actually feels a little awkward..

when they reach the mall.. they quickly buy a movie ticket and went in for the movie....
During the movie, Elvina kept really quiet as she was thinking ...now instead having butterflies in her stomach they are in her brain now!!!

Everyone knows time flies... especially when you are busy...
soon then the movie ended and it was like "owh No" foR Elvina....

Justin then feel really awkward trying to make Elvina talk ...Justin was such stupid that she thought Elvina was sad.... she then ask her to wait at a restaurant where they are having tea...and told her that he is on emergengy to toilet

Off go Justin.... he went to a give shop and buy something that looks cute, special and adorable for Elvina... this took him time man .....

waiting........

As you know waiting alone is what ladies hate the most.... Elvina was so  frustrated and called him to find out whether he is fine or not.

Justin knew that Elvina has lost her patience and he said " erm ..Elvina ..can you come to......... i am here..sorry"

Elvina felt annoyed and then she went to the place that he said he was ...
she she couldnt find him.....
without noticing, Justin was actually following her from behind......
Elvina pick up her phone and called Justin ......
And she was shock to heard that there is a echo coming behind her ....she thought she heard wrongly but then she turn and saw  Justin she switch off her phone.....

Justin was smiling at her sweetly ..... while Elvina was still standing there with a annoyed look ... when justin apologised she smiled and said "how dare you..."

Justin then hand her over a little nice elegant tiny music box.... which played her favourite melodies.... Elvina love the music box a lot.

When they sit at a bench listening to the melodies, Elvina felt so touched . This is not the first time that Justin's  actions touch her heart .....

soon they went in the car and Justin drive Elvina home....
on the way back home, Elvina told Justin " hey dude, can we talk ?"

Justin then stopped his car nearby a beautiful park near the sea...
they went down and have some chit-chat and then came to a point where Justin proposed to Elvina...

Elvina was happy and touch and said "  You know what... you make me feel warm and touch even just a small thing u do for me ".....

Justin hold Elvina's hand and said ' as long as i am with you i will ensure you are happy ....."

at that moment they both looked eye to eye as they were touched by each other and they end this beautiful day watching sunset.

------------------------the  end--------------------------------------------------------

THIS this THIS reminds ME of YOU !!!

I was so bored lately can came out with this ........... so random  : P

LETS START .....

when i get see a flying kiss it remind me of KISS ELAINE

when i saw a mini HP and Video this reminds me of JAKE

when i saw buttons  it reminds me of SEE WEI

when i smell maggie cup and see sexy lips it reminds me of KIMBERLEY

when i heard "good morning people" and purple sunglasses it reminds me of MARCUS

when i saw a goggle kind of spectacles it reminds me of  DERRICK

when it comes to "ji mui" of course its STAN

when comes to throwing chairs and JB it reminds me of LEE TAT

when comes to ghostly long hair and paris hilton it reminds me of KEAN HOE

when i saw people talking to the air and changing names it reminds me of  YOLANDA YAP

when i see Subway and come to a verse" i am hungry" it reminds me of  RAINBOW

when it comes to quietness i remember of Jo ANN

when come to noise and dancing it reminds me of JUNIOR

when it comes to fml i remember of JEN

when i come across "char siu"  it reminds me of  NICOLE

when it comes to changing bf fast  for sure i remember MAYE

when it comes to my birthday i remember SEOK HUI

when it comes to clubbing who else other than CHRISTINE

when someone ask some one to seduce some one I remember IVAN

when comes to a english look chinese its MICHELLE YEOW

when comes to composing i remember ANDREW ONG

when comes to a avatar picture of his it reminds me of WAYNE

when comes to magic who else other than ZLWIN

when come to tweety and owing me a karaokae and a cake it is for sure you DENSON

when comes to biz latte or coffee its MICHELLE LIM

when comes to tonnes of dreams i remember LYNN

when i come across poodle i remember MONA LEE VEE

when come to singing as well as diva i remember of DEBBIE

when comes to angel for sure its ANGEL

when i come across my diaries it reminds me of you YOLLENDA NG

when comes to generousity and piloting it reminds me of JOO LONG

when it comes to a frog its you FROG K.P

when i come across story of cyber cafe its you P.KEE

when i come across flavored taufu fa i remember of A.W.M

when i come to this word 'kambing' its reminds me of K.M

when i come across a aunty like person i remember of SIN MEI

when come to bus U82 i remember YEE TENG

when comes to chanel this reminds me of her dog its you JOLYNN

...........the list never ends .........................................

矛盾

有时候人真的很矛盾。。。就像我这样。。。。

我很想做坏人可是我的良心。。。永远都是我的障碍。。。。。

想了那么多。。。才终于发现我心跳快消失了。。。

我唱的歌还是唱着。。。为我弹奏的却不是你了。。。

你就像那夜空里划过的那颗流星。。。只是过客

我望着那些绿色草原，向前走。。。

希望风吹来都挡得住。。。

能呼吸道花草的芬芳。。。。

如果我不自己走出草原 还在黑洞里

你会牵我向前走出草原吗？

再多暗示也没用 再多用心也没用

再多耐心也没用 再多努力也没用

你眼里 心里 容不了我。。。。

现在只留下我一人 弹奏唱歌～～～～～

AMBIGUITY~ 暧昧

i believe ambiguity happens among all people ....

who cares whether you are in a relationship or not!!!

sometimes ambiguity maybe sweet to lead to to get a tooth cavity...

and sometimes its painful....

and perhaps its full of confusions..............

but is ambiguity good??

i have no idea ... although i had had went through that stage several times........

but after sometimes i felt quite uncomfortable then ..hahhaa

sometimes people do enjoy in such states .....

because you don't have to promise anything and be to the fullest of your responsibilities.....

but sometimes people let it be because they do not know how to choose and decide......

perhaps it takes some time to shift from ambiguity to something more realistic...........

as people become more conscious in what they are craving for ...

its more cruel to say that they wont get it in reality

why chasing after somthing you cant even grab it or touch it .....

nah..... forget about it^^

sometimes i just wanted myself to be as innocent as possible ...

and think simple ....

but as your age grows .......... u have to come and meet with this kind of circumstances ..............^^

good luck everyone who is in ambiguity mode     

Its a rainy THURSDAY

today as usual i went early to college.....

the morning actually started quite funny ....mmm hmmm who cares...

i took my bath pretty late and phew luckily i was able to catch my train as usual....

i don't want to miss it because i will feel DAMN piss ....

30 mins for the next train ...

its a waste of TIME .......

Reaching KL SENTRAL .....

i am always pissed by the lift and escalator .....

the lift is always there but it is VERY COZY AND SLOW !!!

INDEED SLOW .....

the escalator have never be repaired anymore since then .......

it remain idle and TOURIST as well as local people had to carry large luggages ...

and lift their elephant leg to CLIMB !!!!

lately i am used to not feeling Satisfying....

but if you go on a daily routine LIKE THIS you will too ........

now coming to college LIFT problems again !!!!

LOL ... BRICKFIELDS should have profesionals in making the lift work BEST !!!

ITS INDEED DEMANDING !!!

then when i reach college i went to buy FOOD !!

as usual "chee cheong fun" with juz only sweet sauce and no oil.....

then i met with my friends at 3rd floor ....

as usual lor "elaine, kean hoe, marcus, daniel, kimberley, see wei and michelle"

hahahaha.....

but it was a lot of fun ..........

then the LLB students came up of an idea to skip CLR .........

which they claim boring..........

then we went to McDonalds adn sit there for hours .........

chit-chatting ...........

guess what ....ELAINE in motion........

and Marcus is Hyperactive ..........

and kim, see wei and michelle ate McDonalds for breakfast and lunch....

hahahha

are u guys craving for McDonald that much .?? hahaha juz kidding.........

then its time to attend ........... Contact law

gosh is Ms Meera........

i thought she was scary initially ...

but after all i felt she was COOL .........

hahahha .........

her class was nice ......

and she was kind enough to let us go off early ...but most people was reluctant......

anyway i am late and can't attend my important events

because the rain was heavy ............

me and mei sie as well as hui mei ...

was waiting for the rain to stop while having dinner at old town ...........

talking about food ... i want a dessert now ........

Baskin Robbin Green Tea ice cream !!!!!!

anyway when i reache the station the train was actually quite packed and the train had got delayed.....

due to the blackouts in certain places .....

lol anyway i am used to it .....

i just hope that it won't happen when i am really in a rush ............................

thats my day .. and how was yours ^^ 

a little more to be a bad influence kid

COPied from JAKE haha...lets see how bad i am

1. smoked.

2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.

#MY TOTAL: 4



1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.

#MY TOTAL: 7



1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar

#MY TOTAL: 5



1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.

#MY TOTAL: 3



1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.

#MY TOTAL: 2



1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

#MY TOTAL: 3



1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.

#MY TOTAL: 6



1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.

#MY TOTAL: 2


1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.

#MY TOTAL: 7



Grand Total: 39 :D



If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]

If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]

If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]

If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]

If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]

If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]

If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]

If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

when Glennyss is not glennyss

i know it may not looks nice any way i juz post it : P

Before I came writing my blog I felt that I have a lot to write …

But when I come to my blog I am feeling blank …hahaha
People tend to say tomorrow is a better day ..
But have you thought of …as day passes
Our burden is getting more and more …
Maybe we get a little freedom …..
But things for us to do and worries are much much more…..

Emotions are things that I should over come…..
But not until I met with a spammer …..
I don’t even know her lol…….
But she deserves it from me …
Hahahaaha……
Bad girl I am …muahahahhha


Winds blow…sun is almost covered by clouds…. so do the leaves of a tree waives to me …..
That scenario always makes me feel relaxing………
when strong wind blows towards me I wished I could stand strong……..
Our life is like a boat in the sea……
The larger the ship the greater the danger and risk….
The harder the waves will hit ………………..
All u just need is a little blessing ….
And supports …hand in hand we all go ………………….

When love is near~ 当爱在靠近

When love come near to you...what should you do??

RESIST??or just take it??

差一点失去我自己

那天听了一位朋友的一句话 “你说我那么好又如何，那么好也不能让你爱上我”。。。
我听了后好心酸。。。那就像一个刻骨铭心的感情。。。
我心情最近也是闷闷的。。。
时好时坏。。把一些事情藏在心里头。。。说不出口。。。也终于体会这句 “女人心海底针”


那次过后秋彤对自己说不问也不想了。。。
可是。。有些事不是你不要说不要想他就不会来寻找你~~那就是感觉
为什么别人的故事来的那么简单那么容易呢。。。
我来说是很难呢。。。


对于你，我无法猜得透。。再也不想去猜。。。
为什么要把我放在那么浮渣的情况我不知道。。。
我很愚笨，曾今想继续。。。
直到那一刻那一秒我想了很久很久。。。我不该继续。。
因为我很害怕~ ~ ~


何况你也被一个很浮渣的感情款绕着。。。
你等待的是一个爱的赌注。。。我等待的是真心。。。
我很清楚没有那么一天。。。
因为在一千年以后，第几个一百天后 或 几个小时内 我就会彻底的消失~~~
何必再继续。。。。


虽然不痛可是还是有一点辣的的滋味。。。
放手也许是最好的选择。。
这次我学会理智 。。。。不再冲动。。。
没有冒险。。。。


谢谢我朋友们。。。希望我的不好的心情不会影响。。。
爱死你们了来了。。。呵呵~ ~ ~

today is another day ... and i am happy ...
but still confused ....what to do with a confused child like me....
People don't be annoyed yea ...hahhaa

Most of my friend are  really sweet lately and hence ....i am going to get diabebtes SOOn!!!
hahhahaha...........
but there are some which is not..... but i will support them n their decisions.... perhaps
but it sounds bad......
haiz ~~~~hahha maybe respecting their decisions.,.....

now this make me to think of wednesday that stupid moral class i would had.....
instead i called it a "porn class"......
and you know what exam is in few weeks time... and he wont give us notes!!!!
No NOTES and No Books ...
WT~ ~ ~  ~
its killing me

but on the other hand we are having fun behind there  with jr...
making me laugh hahahaha...HAHAHAH.....
talking about courage and embarassment ....
hahhaha.... we dun even know our definition for it that day hahaha
its a small secret though ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Hahahahaha ssssssssshhhhhhssssssss

what happen to me

Its already midnight, but i am still awake...

i couldn't sleep and facing insomnia again today ....

why is that so....

The weather has been really bad lately ...but try not to blame the weather.....

i discovered that my emotions are changing from bad to worst.......

i will be really excited this moment and sad the other....

i might be laughing like crazy people and the next moment depressed.....

i maybe conscious of what i am doing now but get confused later..........

Friends try to help me...but did it help...

Problems is like a padlock...

Solutions are the keys....

when will i get the right keys.............

Its not i do not want to tell you all whats happening to me....

Its the fact that i can't even distinguished it myself..........

Its worst than playing snake and ladders....

i knew some friends around me having problems too....

but its hard to help them sort out.....

Because its private and confidential..........

I can only be a listener to them...........thats what i had done......

i think ...sometimes things are going too fast.........

i want to make it slow................

Its hard when you feel like crying and u can't...............

Its like draining in your heart............

Telling the truth might not be the reality and it maybe the ugly truth.......

I  would like to apologise if i did ignore some friends....

I will do this when i am not in mood......

But i try not to........i love you all

my emotion now is like a mess..........

If u reallly concerned about me ....please don't ask why....

just try making me laugh and smile.............

because i feel that i had lost my true smile.......

And sometimes all i need is just a HUG~~~~~~

When How Chew Theng WAs in School

hahaha..... having thought of when i was in school in history hahaha.......

What do you think about me ?

A good Student OR a bad one ????

GUess........................

talking about kindergarten( i forget the name of it ......Rhythm...).......

i was in kindergarten for three years and i am a emotional child inside me but an obedient child....

from small i was controlled and asked to study ......

i actually never had had any sweet childhood life in me.........

but i was a good girl and used to be bullied by other kids ......

i remember i cried...... not beacuse of schooling but being bullied......

i never cry when asked to go to school........

but i did some barter system business with my friends when i was small...hahaha

guess what....

i had a nice bag with four plastic flowers ...nice one .... in the pocket of my bag ...

i then realise that it could be taken out ...hahhaa....

as my friend saw it she want those flowers .... and i wanted her story books ....

then i actually change those flowers in return of some story books ...hahaa

............

ooh yea i was a really fat girl when i was in kindergarten....

fatty girl,short neck and small eyes and dark skin .............. eeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhhhh

i was 33 kg when i was kindergarten ...hahahaha scary.........

Talking about primary ( Sekolah Sri lethia Klang).......

being lethian is not easy ... becausei gotta had a test to get in to this school...

or else i will be in SJK(C)Pin Hwa ......

i was very successful in getting to this school because...

most of my cousins are there .....

whats nice being in this  school ????

pehaps the teacher .....air-cond classroom......

but the food in the canteen sucks....and is not hygienic.....

you will see cockroaches head trust me ....

what i like about in that school is that we live as if like one family under the roof....

we have different game seasons.....

i missed the time when my class girl and me playing basketball  with the boys even if it rains....

i miss the time where we practice aerobic dance for sports day .....

i miss my school music teacher Mdm,tan.... she is the prettiest teacher in school

i miss the time when we 3 meet the principle when we were playing with water .....

i miss the time when i saw my naughty classmate boys being punish to suck a pacifier for being talkative....

i miss the time when i went out with my teacher to eat taufu fa  during school hours......ssssshhhssss

i miss the time when i was practising with my teacher for my story telling competition.....

i miss the time that we practice our sketch......

i miss the time that we practice for our annual concert....

i miss the choir groups where i was in .........

i miss my music practical exam where i will sing and get an "A"....

i miss watching fellow friends climbing up the hill catching grasshoppers....when it was the season...

i miss the time we won the quiz against the next class but get scolded by the next class form teacher....haaha

i miss watching my talkative friends being punished to eat really spicy chillies....

i miss the time where we work hard .......

i miss the time that we talk about each other and being like Sisters........

i miss the time when i was planning for our trip with ms.mona......

i miss the conversation between us and teachers....sweet............

i miss the end year trip............

i miss the langkawi trip........it will be in me always..........

i miss my primary life LOT.......

secondary life .......( SMK tengku ampuan jemaah & SMK Batu Unjur)

it was the time that all my happy lifes are gone....

but i was reaaly happy to know some of my best friends....

secondary life is so much different to me.....

i feel so lonely in the first day of school........

i have no friends  ..... and no groups......... lonely

i swear u will never felt that lonely and hopeless......

but i was at that time

i was wandering why was the people in the school are not that disciplined....

and very soon i could adapt and be one of it ...........

it was a horrible experience and sad things to be in SMK TAj....

i don't actually like that school much .... but i like the friends there.....hahaha

it was a ghostly school perhaps....

whenever i  go to the toilet it creeps me out....

and there are once a ghostly season that many student get possessed by ghost everyday....

and the environment is so hazy and polluted...not a good place indeed....

but is a good place to make plenty of friends if u could adapt to their life....

u can discover this people attitudes  are totally different and funny.....

hahhaa

but dangerous tooo... as u know they are the boss....

but i never try to be the boss..............hahahah

because i got spies in school so gotta be humble hahhaa

juz kiddng.....

in SMK batu unjur....

it is a new school and hence it is better for sure....

at least it is not so polluted ....

and discipline teachers there are more kind...

i easily coulds adapt to that environment hhaaa.....

experience perhaps....

what i had discover in that school was there are lots of "leng lui" in my class....

hahhaha.........

the unforgettable part is that they actually celebrated my birthday nicely hahaa....

i remember yohini went to K.L to ordered a cake for me and some get ready the guitar and sing....

hahhahaha.....thanks to you people....

i remember once we had a presentation and we had said to our " beloved teacher ...."

and guess what she said ... she asked " are you sure ..right or not "

initially we couldn't catch what she trying to say because its a sudden but then we laughed ...hahaha.....

i  actually missed the teachers there because they are lovely and taught me lots of things.....

they use their heart to teach ..........

thats me in school^^

Fairy Tales

Let me first share with u guys a fairy tales written by one of my friend.........

"Once upon a time there lived a little girl named Annabeth. She lived in a little toadstool down by the creek. It wasn't very large, but it was warm and cozy during the cold winter nights. It was cold and breezy during the hot summer afternoons. There was a quaint little kitchen where she could make vegetable stew and peachey apricot pies.

 

   There was always sweet smells coming from her kitchen. all the little creaturesof the forest always find themselves wandering towards the sweet smell of her pies. Apple pies, cherry pies, peach pies, mushroom pies for supper. She was really good at making pies. Annabeth loved pies.

   she also has a cat named BraveHeart. He was tabby old fellow with orange and brown fur. BraveHeart had a habit of chasingthe little garden mice around, not to eat. Just for fun. They were good friends. Round and round the little toadstool house they would chase each other till Annabeth stops thembecause she gets too dizzy.

   On the warm summer afternoons, Annabeth would sit outside her toadstool and sip some tea. She would wait for the cool summer breeze to blow. when that happens, Annabeth and Brave would imagine that they were both out at sea where the salty air would blow.

On cold winter nights, they would hug each other by the warm fire. Life was such a breeze everyday there were new pies to bake, there was always enough tea and the weather was always fine. "

However . i have been told that fairy tales are NOT fairy tales....

why is that so..... because fairy tales are not true .....

i think perhaps fairy tales are modified story .............

Which means there are no true Cinderella....

We don't have Beauty And The Beast... and etc...............

but i still like fairy tales .....

this is because fairy tales is where we learned something called ....LOVE....

PERFECTIONS........BEAUTY................................^^

let fairy tales to be Fairy TAles